so i think i just found out what it means to be an adult,
not caring how your life turns out but thinking ahead to the future of those that
have yet to come.
ive been very selfish, ive always wanted to find the right girl and wouldnt settle for
anything less. thats just a stupid idea. sure you can find love but its not the same.
whose to say the girl you fall for will be the right one, what if you moved to a different
city and found the right one there. its just a matter of circumstance.
now i really do want to fall in love with the one, ive always dreamed of having kids of my own.
in my dreams, i always pictured having a baby girl and i hold on to that dream very tightly.
if i could wish for 3 things in life it would be to find an awesome girl, have a beautiful
baby girl and to look like jason statham by the time im 40.
sure having fun is nice because thats what being young is all about, but no matter how old
i am, im always looking forward to being a dad. idk why but it seems way more interesting and
fun than partying all night. now dont get me wrong i love partying but it doesnt hold a
candle to the idea of being a parent, but thats a long ways off hopefully.
this dream i have a having a baby girl is literally the only thing i hope comes true!
i want to be there when she is born to mark her with a sharpie to make sure i dont lose her,
jsut like my dad did to me. i want to be there when she wakes up in the middle of the night
crying her face off. to be there at the end of the room to pick her up when she crawls to me.
to catch her when she learns to walk so she doesnt go face first into the wall. i want to learn
how to braid hair (even if its the simplest one) so i can make sure she is ready for her first day
of school lunch box in hand and a backpack thats bigger than her. id love that crooked smile because
all her teeth have fallen out. id play dress up and have dance parties all day if thats what she wanted.
id teach her all about classic movies (because lets face it, any movie out now would be a classic by then)
and teach her the way of the gamer. we would be the biggest nerds together. id learn to paint her nails
so she could look as fashionable as she wanted. id put up with her and love her even when she
went through her i hate dad middle school phase. we would have movie sundays, switching between movies
i wanted to see and what she wanted to see, that would be our glue during all her phases.
id support the shit of her in anything she wanted to do and try not to hold her back from doing
anything she ever wanted to do. id probably have a strong opinion, but who wouldnt.
drive her to her first school dance and pick her up when some stupid boy broke her heart or whatever.
teach her to drive even if it gave me grey hair and a heart attack in the process.
id make sure that we go on father daughter dates more often than she went on real dates!
i will be there to scare the living shit out of her first boyfriend and all the others that
came after that so i could be sure they treated her the way she deserved to be treated.
id support her decision to learn whatever she wanted, and after highschool if she wanted to
go to college or be a part of the working class. nothing will be too good for her.
now dont get me wrong if i have a boy or both or more i will love them all as much as i possibly could
and would do anything and everything for them. i just want to be the best parent i can be.
people say im an old soul, and thats probably why im a smartass and the way i am, but that is
probably why im always dreaming of being a parent. maybe its the way i was raised.
all i know is that i want to pass on some things and leave my mark on this world. it wont be by
doing some grand feat or becoming famous, but it will be the children i leave behind.
they may do great, amazing things or they could be just like me. as long as they try their best and
have dreams for their lives thats all i ever wanted.
its scary to look to the future, but thats what i see in my future. the present is fun but there will
be a day when my future becomes my present and on that day i will be truly happy and complete.
until then, lets just have fun waiting and see what happens
