i think this is the point in my life were i realize that the people that were my friends in high school were never meant for the long run
i mean its hard for me to get close to people now since i have no strong connection to anyone in this point in my life
its a bit hard because ive never had this were im just alone.
all 4 of my bestfriends have left and im stuck in this weird place where we still talk to each other but it seems distant...but i guess this is expected because its real life right?
people move away and the time you spend with each other goes away..but you never stop being friends
well ever since they left i guess i have also distanced myself from people i guess out of fear that they might leave me too
im not scared of being alone at all..its just that im not a person that should be left alone because im in my head too much
my friends were the ones that got me out into the world and i feel like im slowly retreating back to my old self
its a little more difficult making new friends that share the same ideals or even remotely the same ideals because mine have changed so much
im not trying to say that no one compares to me...its just that i havent found anyone else that wants the same things out of life that i do
the main point im trying to convey i guess is that i miss my friends so much because they played such a big roll in my life and they left so quickly.
i assume that this is the in between time were i find out who i really am on my own because it will define who i become for the rest of my life.
needless to say id rather have someone by my side to share the experience with
you never know how much you appreciate people until they arent there to share all the little things with you.
THIS IS MY LIFE!
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
a little light
have you ever had a vision of yourself in the future and knew that it would actually come true.
well i have seen the future me and i know that one day thats how im going to be
it will involve a change of my whole life style but i think it will be worth it
i dont expect things to just fall into place but rather take control and make my on future because thats the only way that works
fate can possibly figure into one part of your life...that is your inevitable death
people make their own way in this world. i once believed in fate and that one thing that could change everything. then i have learned through my few life experiences that we can choose to do anything and that will affect us
i have made some stupid decisions already and have paid for them
from these decisions i have learned that no matter the choices i make something will happen to get someones attention.
from now on im going to make a positive change because i want some good results :)
PS: joke of the day- DONT HASSLE THE HOFF
well i have seen the future me and i know that one day thats how im going to be
it will involve a change of my whole life style but i think it will be worth it
i dont expect things to just fall into place but rather take control and make my on future because thats the only way that works
fate can possibly figure into one part of your life...that is your inevitable death
people make their own way in this world. i once believed in fate and that one thing that could change everything. then i have learned through my few life experiences that we can choose to do anything and that will affect us
i have made some stupid decisions already and have paid for them
from these decisions i have learned that no matter the choices i make something will happen to get someones attention.
from now on im going to make a positive change because i want some good results :)
PS: joke of the day- DONT HASSLE THE HOFF
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
new leaf
well i think im gonna start a new chapter in my life were i do things the right way...
you know just try to be the best person i can be without losing who i am of course
so now i have to start hitting the gym, doing really good in school, get a job, just have some fun and be myself
i just wanna see this as a turning point in my life that is a positive one because i have been going down the wrong path for a while but i did learn something from it...
there is such thing as too much fun and that line can be crossed.
so the lesson i learned is that i have to think about things a little better for myself rather than others...that has always been one of my major flaws...i could always help others get out of tough situations but when it came to my own i was as helpless as the next guy
you know there is a part of me that kinda wished that i could continue to go crazy and wild for the rest of my life...but somehow i think that i would try to be soo badass that i might kill myself or end up like Charlie Sheen(which would be pretty badass)
well now that i have decided to become a better person all around i think ill take it easy on the going crazy for a while...i guess i have plenty of time to make an ass out of myself
but dont worry people i will still party, just not as hard as i used to :P
well i have to celebrate somehow so i want to get out there and party hard because thats the only way i know how to celebrate! :)
you know just try to be the best person i can be without losing who i am of course
so now i have to start hitting the gym, doing really good in school, get a job, just have some fun and be myself
i just wanna see this as a turning point in my life that is a positive one because i have been going down the wrong path for a while but i did learn something from it...
there is such thing as too much fun and that line can be crossed.
so the lesson i learned is that i have to think about things a little better for myself rather than others...that has always been one of my major flaws...i could always help others get out of tough situations but when it came to my own i was as helpless as the next guy
you know there is a part of me that kinda wished that i could continue to go crazy and wild for the rest of my life...but somehow i think that i would try to be soo badass that i might kill myself or end up like Charlie Sheen(which would be pretty badass)
well now that i have decided to become a better person all around i think ill take it easy on the going crazy for a while...i guess i have plenty of time to make an ass out of myself
but dont worry people i will still party, just not as hard as i used to :P
well i have to celebrate somehow so i want to get out there and party hard because thats the only way i know how to celebrate! :)
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
this is fun
well its been a while hasnt it
ok well so far my life isnt too bad right now. i mean i have some good friends and stuff..school isnt too bad either
so all in all id say that things are pretty good
anyways i just wanted to put my feelings out there for all you punks who actually read this stuff :P
ok so anyone that really knows me, knows that im like a super sensitive guy that acts like an asshole cause its fun to do :)
yea being an asshole is an art and im pretty sure ive got a good handle on it because everyone either assumes im an asshole or just know im an asshole
while on the inside im just this little sensitive guy that is kinda shy to talk to girls and loves watching love movies and always wants to cuddle
yea thats right i said it!
i like to cuddle because its just so much fun and warm:)
ok well thats a little of me so hope you enjoyed it and keep reading my shit because it makes me excited!
PS. dont ever watch the roommate because that movie sucks so much dick that it makes crack heads look like saints!
ok well so far my life isnt too bad right now. i mean i have some good friends and stuff..school isnt too bad either
so all in all id say that things are pretty good
anyways i just wanted to put my feelings out there for all you punks who actually read this stuff :P
ok so anyone that really knows me, knows that im like a super sensitive guy that acts like an asshole cause its fun to do :)
yea being an asshole is an art and im pretty sure ive got a good handle on it because everyone either assumes im an asshole or just know im an asshole
while on the inside im just this little sensitive guy that is kinda shy to talk to girls and loves watching love movies and always wants to cuddle
yea thats right i said it!
i like to cuddle because its just so much fun and warm:)
ok well thats a little of me so hope you enjoyed it and keep reading my shit because it makes me excited!
PS. dont ever watch the roommate because that movie sucks so much dick that it makes crack heads look like saints!
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
im happy!
well when i came back in december to winter break i had forgotten my black ops with my friend ryan. so i had to wait all winter for him to give it back. so since i didnt go back to ASU he had to mail it. well its been like 3 weeks since he mailed it and it never got here...so i went out and bought a new used one so that i could play again!
also i got the FIRST STRIKE map pack that went with it so that made me very happy :)
so now that i had it i was well on my way to the first prestige mode!
over superbowl sunday i spent most of the day playing trying to make it to 50 from 42. it was pretty intense but i managed to do it. so i finally prestiged and the next day i played again...this time i went from lvl 1 to 20 in one day...now i know wat your thinking and thats i dont have a life.
this is pretty true since i cant go out on the weekends, my homework is super easy, and i have no friends to kick it with all the time...all i do is play
so now im just happy that i have something to do cause its better than just sitting here on my computer :P
well if you play hit me up and add me on xbox live!
xMindlessProx <-----gamertag
also i got the FIRST STRIKE map pack that went with it so that made me very happy :)
so now that i had it i was well on my way to the first prestige mode!
over superbowl sunday i spent most of the day playing trying to make it to 50 from 42. it was pretty intense but i managed to do it. so i finally prestiged and the next day i played again...this time i went from lvl 1 to 20 in one day...now i know wat your thinking and thats i dont have a life.
this is pretty true since i cant go out on the weekends, my homework is super easy, and i have no friends to kick it with all the time...all i do is play
so now im just happy that i have something to do cause its better than just sitting here on my computer :P
well if you play hit me up and add me on xbox live!
xMindlessProx <-----gamertag
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
religions
yea so many of you know that i strongly oppose catholicism and many other forms of religion
so i just wanted to talk about it cause i have nothing better to do with my time
well anyways...religions are narrow-minded manipulative organizations that feed their masses lies about the past and how people should live their lives
some people may argue that religion helps make them a better person but i beg to differ because these so called morals that religion teaches can be learned by doing everyday reminal tasks
every religion claims to be the right one and some say that they can peacefully co-exist with others when in reality that is not true
religion isnt a hypothetical question in which there is no answer.
there is one defined answer and that there is no religion.
the way i see it, is that they created it to gather a large group of people with similar outlooks on life and made them do these rituals to make them feel better about themselves and somehow that escalated to people preaching
and as for these so called gods? really? how many fucking gods do people think there are out there?
as for my hate of catholicism...they preach as if they are the one sole religion that should be followed because they spread the words that were passed down throughout the centuries
when in fact it is one of the youngest religions to date that is widely followed
thats like saying itunes is the creator of music.
now i know some people feel differently about this and say that religion is a key factor in their lives and im not going to say that its wrong for them. i will criticize but not hate. they have a choice to do watever they please so let them follow a false belief. religion is also just something that people turn to so that they can feel better about the wrong things they have done because they believe that if they tell someone all the wrongs they have done that they will magically go away.
if you want to talk shit to me, agree with me, change anything i said, try to kill me, praise me, or just write something stupid....go for it
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so i just wanted to talk about it cause i have nothing better to do with my time
well anyways...religions are narrow-minded manipulative organizations that feed their masses lies about the past and how people should live their lives
some people may argue that religion helps make them a better person but i beg to differ because these so called morals that religion teaches can be learned by doing everyday reminal tasks
every religion claims to be the right one and some say that they can peacefully co-exist with others when in reality that is not true
religion isnt a hypothetical question in which there is no answer.
there is one defined answer and that there is no religion.
the way i see it, is that they created it to gather a large group of people with similar outlooks on life and made them do these rituals to make them feel better about themselves and somehow that escalated to people preaching
and as for these so called gods? really? how many fucking gods do people think there are out there?
as for my hate of catholicism...they preach as if they are the one sole religion that should be followed because they spread the words that were passed down throughout the centuries
when in fact it is one of the youngest religions to date that is widely followed
thats like saying itunes is the creator of music.
now i know some people feel differently about this and say that religion is a key factor in their lives and im not going to say that its wrong for them. i will criticize but not hate. they have a choice to do watever they please so let them follow a false belief. religion is also just something that people turn to so that they can feel better about the wrong things they have done because they believe that if they tell someone all the wrongs they have done that they will magically go away.
if you want to talk shit to me, agree with me, change anything i said, try to kill me, praise me, or just write something stupid....go for it
RIGHT HERE
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Tuesday, February 1, 2011
tuesdays
dear tuesdays please stop being such a bitch!
i really wish that either all my classes were at west or the one class i need to go to today was earlier. regardless it really sucks that i have to spend all day at school when i really dont have to.
yea i should be learning something while im here but i feel that if im going to be at school all the time i should be doing something thats a little more fun right.
oh well i write on here all the time and most of wat i say doesnt reach the real world but i really dont care cause it doesnt take that long to write all of this for the few that read.
so i guess i have nothing more to say to you tuesdays...besides i wish you were wednesdays!
i really wish that either all my classes were at west or the one class i need to go to today was earlier. regardless it really sucks that i have to spend all day at school when i really dont have to.
yea i should be learning something while im here but i feel that if im going to be at school all the time i should be doing something thats a little more fun right.
oh well i write on here all the time and most of wat i say doesnt reach the real world but i really dont care cause it doesnt take that long to write all of this for the few that read.
so i guess i have nothing more to say to you tuesdays...besides i wish you were wednesdays!
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