back at it again

well guys, or whoever still reads this crap, im back at it.
so im a little bit older and probably non the wiser

where do i begin, life seems to just be cyclical because ive been doing the same thing year in and year out.
i moved out of the house and that was fun, but it seemed that i traded my parents
for even worse parental figures. my roommates felt that life decisions i was making
didnt fit into their new lifestyle so they ridiculed it and ostracized me for it.
eventually things came to a head and i made the decision to not keep myself in such an environment.
so now im back at my parents, on the verge of hitting what most out say is the first quarter
of my life with the only to show is a very slowing decreasing debt, a newish car,
a steady job that pays the bills and a cute cat.
so you tell me world, have i lived up to my potential yet?
honestly i never pictured it this way but who knows, the struggles of today could be the
push i needed to get to where i want to go.
regardless of any life choices i make, the only thing that matters are my dreams.

rambling again, cant ever find myself thinking of just one subject at any time. the mind wanders
too much and its the curse of what i would call and over burdened mind with little to do.
seriously, my time is spent at work babysitting people that are dealing with less than
intelligent old people and their cohorts on telephones, drinking like im at a college frat party,
not talking to pretty girls because im "too shy" to say anything, and playing videogames because
thats what brings in the ladies. on a lighter note, i have since tried to stop falling in love
with every girl that smiles at me and decided to at least consider they dont know who i am.
is it weird to be a 20 something year old in this day in age?

now of course im super critical of myself but why not, someone has to be.
my friends will sugarcoat it and my family will be oblivious to it all. growing up now is so odd.
when was the last time you went to the farmers market and met the person of your dreams?
as im typing i feel myself getting less interested in this topic as is probably anyone reading this post.
lets switch gears a little, ive been struggling with some ideas of making some extra money.
in my head im like i can get a second job and it will be all fine, but i know i would hate life
becasue i would have extra money with no time to spend it.
or i could become an artist and make shit that people would be willing to pay money for.
im more fond of the 2nd one, as it will afford me to be creative again, which i enjoy and
quite possibly allow me to interact with people again. at least people i dont work with.

well it seems that ive gone on long enough, if you do read this then i commend you for making it all
the way through it. by all means read further and delve into the small puddle that is the
void of my mind. also a big thanks because i know im not easy to put up with, even in writing!
also heres a cat doing stuff

just a cute dream

so i think i just found out what it means to be an adult,
not caring how your life turns out but thinking ahead to the future of those that
have yet to come.
ive been very selfish, ive always wanted to find the right girl and wouldnt settle for
anything less. thats just a stupid idea. sure you can find love but its not the same.
whose to say the girl you fall for will be the right one, what if you moved to a different
city and found the right one there. its just a matter of circumstance.

now i really do want to fall in love with the one, ive always dreamed of having kids of my own.
in my dreams, i always pictured having a baby girl and i hold on to that dream very tightly.
if i could wish for 3 things in life it would be to find an awesome girl, have a beautiful
baby girl and to look like jason statham by the time im 40.

sure having fun is nice because thats what being young is all about, but no matter how old
i am, im always looking forward to being a dad. idk why but it seems way more interesting and
fun than partying all night. now dont get me wrong i love partying but it doesnt hold a
candle to the idea of being a parent, but thats a long ways off hopefully.

this dream i have a having a baby girl is literally the only thing i hope comes true!
i want to be there when she is born to mark her with a sharpie to make sure i dont lose her,
jsut like my dad did to me. i want to be there when she wakes up in the middle of the night
crying her face off. to be there at the end of the room to pick her up when she crawls to me.
to catch her when she learns to walk so she doesnt go face first into the wall. i want to learn
how to braid hair (even if its the simplest one) so i can make sure she is ready for her first day
of school lunch box in hand and a backpack thats bigger than her. id love that crooked smile because
all her teeth have fallen out. id play dress up and have dance parties all day if thats what she wanted.
id teach her all about classic movies (because lets face it, any movie out now would be a classic by then)
and teach her the way of the gamer. we would be the biggest nerds together. id learn to paint her nails
so she could look as fashionable as she wanted. id put up with her and love her even when she
went through her i hate dad middle school phase. we would have movie sundays, switching between movies
i wanted to see and what she wanted to see, that would be our glue during all her phases.
id support the shit of her in anything she wanted to do and try not to hold her back from doing
anything she ever wanted to do. id probably have a strong opinion, but who wouldnt.
drive her to her first school dance and pick her up when some stupid boy broke her heart or whatever.
teach her to drive even if it gave me grey hair and a heart attack in the process.
id make sure that we go on father daughter dates more often than she went on real dates!
i will be there to scare the living shit out of her first boyfriend and all the others that
came after that so i could be sure they treated her the way she deserved to be treated.
id support her decision to learn whatever she wanted, and after highschool if she wanted to
go to college or be a part of the working class. nothing will be too good for her.


now dont get me wrong if i have a boy or both or more i will love them all as much as i possibly could
and would do anything and everything for them. i just want to be the best parent i can be.
people say im an old soul, and thats probably why im a smartass and the way i am, but that is
probably why im always dreaming of being a parent. maybe its the way i was raised.
all i know is that i want to pass on some things and leave my mark on this world. it wont be by
doing some grand feat or becoming famous, but it will be the children i leave behind.
they may do great, amazing things or they could be just like me. as long as they try their best and
have dreams for their lives thats all i ever wanted.

its scary to look to the future, but thats what i see in my future. the present is fun but there will
be a day when my future becomes my present and on that day i will be truly happy and complete.
until then, lets just have fun waiting and see what happens

and we are back

it seems inevitable that i would be stuck back into my head wondering the great mysteries that make up my simple life.
what should i be doing with my time? why is it that i fall in love with every girl that smiles at me?(yes that last one is a movie quote)
i find no comfort in the company i keep, for they are just a facade for me to hide my true feelings behind.
very few know my true feelings and even they know nothing of the darkness that clouds my mind.
i always put on a smile and a clever phrase to make it seem as though im carefree and whatever about my affairs.
truth is that im really just a shitty person who lacks any real value to anyone other than directing
their aggression towards and to make a quick joke.
ive gone through life so far filled with ideas from movies and tv shows that havent really helped me any.
for example, ive always played the nice guy who tells girls that he is an asshole, this was supposed to make me seem
better than all those other guys out there.
i realize that this sounds very stupid but for the longest time i believed it myself.
i thought that since i played the nice guy that girls should be drawn to me and that i was the catch that they should
be trying to be with.
to my utter dismay, i realize that im pretty much useless as a boyfriend.
other than the fact that i am average looking, i can pick good movies to watch and i can make her laugh. im really not
any better than any other guy, probably less. now it seems harsh, but i see now that i dont really bring anything to the table.
im pretty selfish, i dont know how to care for others needs, im not a caring person, if its not interesting to me i could give
2 shits about it, being with someone is all ive ever wanted but i dont know what that means, im not willing to comprimise on almost anything, im way too picky, im lazy as fuck, even if a pretty girl did show interest in me i would have no clue what to do(as far as starting a conversation that didnt end with me thinking i love this girl), and im way more awkward than most people give me credit for.
there is a short list of things that show im a shitty person.
now that is not to say that i dont want or cant get a girlfriend.
i would gladly and can totally get a girlfriend, but if i were being completely honest with myself it would end like all my
other relationships. me being bitter or non caring towards the girl becuase there was no real deep emotional connection,
not for lack of trying on her part, but simply because i can bring myself to open up about my true feelings to anyone.
not even those reading here.

now getting back to my original point, being stuck in my own head has made me realize some of my faults and that i need
to do something soon to start correcting them, otherwise ill be the biggest dumbass i know.
anyone who has spent time with me know that i can make up an excuse for everything no matter the situation.
im usually very good at convining other, becuase im so good at convinving myself.
i have this urge to want everything but do nothing to forward my progress towards it and get frustrated at my poistion in life becuase of it. i cant sit idly by anymore while all my friends take steps in their lives for better or worse.
at least they have the courage to do something for themselves.
ive always been scared to make the big sacrafices if it meant i could lose something ive grown so accustomed to.
im saying this now because im ready to make a move forward soon to change my way of life so that not only will i be
forced to be a better person, but break free from the stupid childish ways ive been living.
ive always had a safety net under me and i never let myself forget it.
i need to take off the training wheels and suck it up.
im going to stumble and fall hard, but that is a lesson i need to learn for myself because everyone can tell
you something, unless you see it for yourself, it will never become a part of you.

again i ramble on about my problems on the internet instead of taking action. at least now, someone can hold me accountable

Tragedy of Commons

The Tragedy of Commons is economic concept that talks about the depletion of shared common resources
by acting selfishly instead of thinking about the greater good as a whole.
Now this can be applied to many aspects of life, but some of the most common shared resources are
food supplies, land, and water. These things may seem like general topics and its true that they
are, but they are among the most used daily.

Lets take food for example, think about how much food an average person consumes every day. Then think
about how much food we buy at the store every week.Factor in how many times we go out to eat. With all
those numbers we can start to see that some food is going to be wasted there. How much depends on the
individual or family, but no matter how small that number gets multiplied exponentially because its not
just one person or family wasting food.Its a whole world of people throwing away food. Everyone knows
there are starving kids in Africa as well as somewhere in your local community. All that food that
you waste or that everyone else wastes could have been used to feed them, but we selfishly bought too
much and didn't eat it so we just threw it away.

The first thing we think about wasting isnt land, but you would be surprised. So many companies buy up
land just because they think it will be profitable one day and just sit on it for years. This land could
be used for so many things from new housing to a school. They only think about lining their pockets and
not what is best for the people that want something on that land. Along with that, some housing, like that
in Arizona, is spread out wide and far. This seems like a nice thing because we arent too close to our
neighbors that we can hear them through the walls, but its such a waste of land. Build up and having
multilevel-ed housing is very economical, but it does come with costs.

Water is the most precious resource we as humans have. It is renewable, but that takes time and it is
becoming harder and harder to keep water in the areas needed. Think about all the water we waste everyday.
We run dishwashers, washing machines, take showers, wash dishes, water the lawn and wash our cars. That
is a lot of water to be just throwing away. Those of us in the desert should be more appreciative of the
amount of water we actually have, but we seem to waste water even more just because we can. Taking long
showers or taking forever to brush our teeth. Water is so important to survival and we treat it like it
comes from a bottomless well filled with fresh water.

There are so many more examples of ways that we as people, society and a world waste our precious resources
out of selfish tendencies. If we want even a small amount of the life we have now, we have to start thinking
ahead. If we continue on this path of needless wasting, then we may run out of these resources that we
have grown so attached to. If it helps, think about what life would be like without clean water, gas to run
our cars, or enough food to make it through the week. We are the only ones that can act and we have to act fast,
or there will be nothing left to waste besides time.

Population

In more recent times the population has spiked dramatically and this has caused great concern for the future of our planet. Questions arise, such as are we going to be able to sustain the volume of people living in the world with the limited resources we have and what are we going to do if we cant. These are scary thoughts if you arent prepared for the answers. Due to modern science people are living much longer than in the past which is adding to the ever increasing population. Most people dont want to die, but thats a natural part of life which is vital to our survival. Along with that, we as people of this planet need to slow down our re-population rate because that is the scariest part. All these small children being born at ever increasing rates is raising population numbers at record speeds. Life is important to everyone, but if we keep populating at the rates we are going then the result will be devastating. At first it would be a slow loss of our finite resources and then just a drop as demands increase and the availability dwindles.

We must all takes steps to help preserve our planet and its resources from ourselves. We are the single most destroyers of this planet in every way, but we also have the ability to save it if we take the appropriate steps. One of the big things that we need to change is controlling new borns, thats not to say that we need to stop having children but be more conscious and careful. We can also change our consumption habits as well, such as what we eat and what we choose to buy. With a little help and the right attitudes we can all change for the better and help preserve our resources for future generations so that they can prosper on this planet just as we have.

Human Adaptations

There is are children that live in South East Asia, the Moken, that are able to see better underwater. They are able to see better underwater than European children and probably most other children around the world. This is a wonderful adaptation because these "children dive for clams and sea cucumbers" which is what they must do for their community (ABCScience). This is one of the more remarkable adaptations that humans have developed because its not changing anything about humans, which could occur in mutations. This is simply the need to change with the environment and adapt, which the Moken people have done. Along with the ability to see better underwater, these children spend most of their time in the water so they are able to move through the water with ease. One source I found said that "they looked a bit like a school of little fish swimming around" because of their ease in the water (ABCScience). Studies were done with these children to find out the extent of their ability to see underwater and how it was actually possible. Scientists found that these Moken children didnt have any special or acute sight while on land, but in the water they did. In the water, they are able to control their pupil dilation to have it close to the smallest a humans pupil will go. Along with the pupil control, they are able to change the shape of their lens shape so they are able to see underwater. These children are able to use the muscles in their eyes to utilize the full potential of the human eye. Those doing the study had the children look at black and white photos of shapes and then try to match them out of the water. Almost every time they were able to get them right. There is nothing that they are doing that isnt natural, its just that they have learned to control their muscles to adapt to their living needs. It would be possible for others to be able to see as these children do, but it would be difficult. One would have to start at an early age and learn like anything else in life.
Im sure that these adaptations benefit the Moken people becasue they are able to make a living off the water, as many people in that area do. This adaptation just gives the Moken people a better to survive and prosper. In South East Asia, most of the area is close to the water so the Moken people may not be the only people that have adapted to their surroundings. Although they may not be the only ones, this adaptation does give them an advantage over other people that make their living the same way. These adaptations can mean the difference between groups of people surviving and others falling by the wayside. Now a days, that shouldnt be the case, but if these were times when the only way to live was to beat the other group at finding a food source and obtaining it, it might be a different story. Adaptations throughout history have allowed humans to better their situations in life as well as make their lives easier.



http://www.abc.net.au/science/articles/2003/06/20/881750.htm

One Too Many Drinks

A mouthful of dirt and a foul smell in the air.
Awaking under the hot sun, the only other awake is the dog,
He keeps at bay. His nose vacuums,
That wretched odor escaping from your pants lingers.
Quickly checking your belonging you discover it,
A warm reminder of that bottle broken beneath
The friend, shirtless and snoring, lying next to the cooler.
Each step, wide legged and slow. No bathroom
Will be able to save you now.

The 11th Hour

Although the movie is a little dated, I still believe that the message that it was trying to convey was very relevant and thoroughly thought out to convince the people of this planet that changes need to be made. We are living on borrowed time because we as humans are increasingly destroying the habitable nature of the planet through our constant need to progress and the throw away culture we have adopted. There are many factors by which this is happening, some of which include; global warming, deforestation, soil erosion, and over population. Many of these problems are directly caused or sped up by human activities, but they can be reduced to a point that there may be a chance to stop or even reverse the effects which could end life as we know it.

Many of the scientists talked about all of these major problems and how they could be affecting the planet as a whole. They went on to state things like the increased temperatures of the planet and even natural disasters could be a result of how we as humans have affected the planet. The rising temperature may not seem very significant, but a rise in one or two degree Fahrenheit of the global climate could be catastrophic and cause massive heat waves or the next ice age. These scientists also discussed the increase in power of natural disasters such as the one in New Orleans with Hurricane Katrina and how a storm such as this could become increasingly normal. Though these two examples and many others can be a result of nature fighting back or a result of something humans may have helped along, they don't only affect humans exclusively, they affect every living thing on this planet.

There are solutions out there to help build a more sustainable future so that we as a species don't go extinct at such a young age. We as a whole planet wide population need to realize the damage we are doing and work towards ways to better our situation, because otherwise its only a short matter of time before we don't have any time. This isnt to say that we drop all of our technology and revert back to the stone age, but learn to utilize our technology to work along with the environment instead of against it. Sustainability is the name of the game and we must learn that if we work as a whole to make this a reality then it will never happen. Everyone has a part to play in this and we can all make a difference.

here we go again, school

what can i talk about today?
school has started again and its still uneventful so far
hopefully something good happens in the near future
but i dont want to get into any more trouble than i already have\
in the past and sorta recent past.
looking forward to job hunting i guess, tired of being broke again
it really isnt fun and i dont get to do most of the things i like to do
like go out and hit up the bars with my friends.
Oh and another thing, being that im a little behind in my classes
(im like a junior or something) i feel a little old in my classes
all these kids in my classes are like seniors and not even 21
im over here about to turn 22 and these kids are talking about 19th
birthdays and stuff. i know im not much older but still thats too crazy.
aside from that most of the people in my classes seem like alright people
i just want to be like, lets all go out for drinks and bond or whatever
guess thats out of the question right? haha
well thats enough ranting or whatever you want to call this for one day
ill let you guys get back to your exciting lives and stop worrying about mine

later guys!!

the things you think you deserve

most people take a few things for granted and one of those are friends
i was one of these people because i thought my friends would always be there
ive been proven wrong on this one so many times
all of my friends come and go so i shouldnt be surprised
the worst part about this is that i invest so much time and energy into
these friendships that i have nothing to show for it when they ditch me
friends always say that something changed, its true. they didnt want to hang out
with you anymore but they just dont want to tell you
we all have our reasons for leaving because ive done it as well but it always sucks
looks like i cant keep bitching about it because its just going to just keep
happening and we just have to let it take its course.
just once id like someone to tell me straight up that they dont want to be my friend
i hate when someone keeps giving excuses for not hanging out and it goes on
for months or even years before it finally sinks in.

all i have to say is cherish your friendships because they are short lived, well some,
and you have to enjoy that time with those people.
otherwise we would all just be sulking around everywhere not wanting to interact
with people for fear they will eventually leave you as well.
friends are like food, most of the time theyre good but sooner or later there
wont be any left but it was always worth meal

half of this doesnt make sense but fuck it!!

first time for everything

i recently went to vegas for the first time and it wasnt anything like i expected
i ended up going with my dad and my sister. im 21 but my sister isnt!
really didnt get to do any of the crazy fun stuff everyone usually does in vegas
i did get to walk around a bunch of casinos and drink outside.
it wasnt all bad, played some slots and even won $12
i mean its a koo place to go if you are going with friends that share the same
interests as you, otherwise you will end up getting bored real quick like i did
i guess its not all fair because im not much of a site seer so i dont like to
just walk around and look at all the shit.
at least there were plenty of places to go eat and shit while we were there
now im really looking forward to going back with some friends and actually
doing something really fun in vegas. drinks at the pool, clubbing, see some shows
who knows what it will be like next time, but it cant get any worse!

i guess you really never know right

id say that im surprised but who am i kidding.
it seems like i have lost another group of friends but thats whatever
im not really offended that they dont want to talk to me
the only thing that really pissed me off is that they never told me.
i dont mind if you dont want to hang out with me or whatever, but at least
have the decency to tell me instead of ignoring me.

you know its weird how attached we become to our friends that once they are gone
that we feel lost and have no sense of place. maybe thats just how i feel
right now or maybe thats just how i always feel.
i mean ive lost friends before so its not like the end of the world or anything
the thing that i dislike the most is that ive done it so many times.

seriously like there are so many people i used to hang out with and now its like
i never see them because either they want nothing to do with me or we just dont
get along good enough to be in the same room. this means im alone right now with
the exception of my bestfriend who is always there for me, but we dont see each other
that often so its different. now i have to find a new group of friends that
accept me and want to spend time with me alot. its actually not that hard
but i dont want to be doing this every other year, maybe its my fault or their fault.
whatever, its past so now just to move forward and do something about it.

this is one of the many reasons i hate tucson and really need to move on from this
place. some people love it here, but its not for me and ive known that for some time.
just have to get through school and hopefully i can finally get out of here.

until then, have fun people

much in time

but a day goes by in this retched life
we all see what has become of us and yet not cry
for there is not a thing to be done
haste we show not, for the tidings we sow

love is eternal in its slumber, fear it well
for once it grasps there is no return.
it claws and digs until none is left, but
our true selves to sit and share

these days we may rue, but forget not
the time that has expired and gone
born to die, too timid to live
our fate is drawn, tempt it

Ever really wonder

I know there are such things as lucid dreams and I've had a couple before, but this last one I had was way too surreal.
I don't want to give you the whole story because I'd like to keep that for me.
However I can give you guys a little taste cause I don't want to be a jerk.

So you know how most people have a girl of their dreams, well in my dream I actually meet the girl in my dreams.
It was amazing, one of the best experiences ever and it felt as real as waking life.
One of those most bizarre things about dreams is that they feel so real yet they are so different than
Anything we experience in waking life because of how we perceive things.
Time doesn't matter in these situations so many years, seconds, days, whatever can pass in your dream and you are non the wiser.
The meaning of our dreams is only for us to interpret so giving you details wouldn't help you guys.

Well I hope I can see her again one day in my dreams or even better in waking life! One can only dream.

Who knows

Alright so far this semester of school has been pretty good to me, let's just hope it lasts.
Been doing good in school our at last I think I am haha
Have some good friends and shit has been looking up, still haven't found a new job but that's on me.
Been too lazy to go out and look for a new one, but I will get one soon cause I miss having money that's mine.
Love being 21 cause it's awesome. Going out to bars and not worrying about getting caught drinking underage, it's the best feeling in the world.
I missed being on an actual campus because pima it's nothing compared to a university. There's girls every where all the time!
I'm just glad that I was able to get my life back together after all the stuff I had been through. It's been tough but I did it.
Shout out to my bestfriend Vanesa cause she is the best, she may claim I help her more than she helps me but that's a lie.
She doors so much for me and is always looking out for me no matter what:)
idk what else to tell you guys other than this is starting to look like my life is getting into a good place and I like it.
I'm always talking about the next big thing I'm going to do, but the only thing left to do is just to keep on living.
Nothing is going to get in my way or slow me down, I just have to take everything one step at a time and try not to fuck everything up again!

Oh well, see you ladies later cause I have class and then it's whatever happens after that.
Until next time, keep  praising me as your fearless leader ;)

Its never too late

Hey everyone, its been too long since ive updated you on whats happening.
Well no job anymore but its alright, fun while it lasted.
Started at the UofA finally and i have to tell you its so much better than pima! Was getting so tired of that place it wasnt even funny.
So many girls here its like being in heaven or something like that. Plus they aarent all stuck up, well most of them.
Idk what else to tell all you, started a new workout plan! Should be tons of fun once i stop hurting and stuff.
2nd redhead i saw today and i have to say, i like what i see :)
Well ill try to keep you updated, somewhat. Might find something better to do with my spare time or just get a job.

Oh vegas next month, super pumped!

living the good life

well all of you that actually read this, i have some good news
i finally got a job and its pretty fun
i feel like things are finally falling into place and i can finally start
living life the way i want.
hopefully i can move out soon and begin the next chapter of my life!
for now im just gonna try to do the best i can and keep doing what im doing
because i must be doing something right.
all that bad shit is behind me now and i can look to the future
as well as that, i have some good friends to share the journey with and i know
they always have my back cause if they dont then ill leave them behind.
other great stuff, a shit ton of new games are coming out that actually look good
as well as a bunch of movies that im actually excited for!
now if i could just settle down and write something for my book then i might actually
exceed my own expectations haha
well for now i think i can honestly say im happy,
i would say i should look for a girlfriend but i dont think i need to look.
ill just let her find me, seems like its bound to happen with all this good
stuff happening to me anyways.

to all my readers out there, thanks for caring enough to waste a minute or two of
your time to read this. i dont really know who you are but you are pretty fucking koo

Whats up internet?

hey guys i know its been a while since ive talked to you and i apologize for that
well where do i begin. life isnt as bad i thought it was. i mean things are still
all over the place but it really isnt as bad as it used to be. i can shrug off the bad things
and hold onto the good things. school is going pretty good, almost ready to transfer to the
university! im excited about that cause that means im closer to getting on with the rest of my life!
remember back when i said i didnt have any friends? it turns out i really did and i was just being a
loner cause im not that bright. we have been hanging out alot and we are Bros.
My writing has improved a lot and im excited about that. Im working on two pieces but i cant really
go into detail cause i dont want you all to steal them! ive also written a bunch of poetry and i think
its pretty good and so does my friend Vanesa who reads all my poems.
The direction my life has been going is not bad and i can see me riding this one out for a while.
I hope there is more good stuff to come because when bad stuff happens to me, it tends to pile on and
thats just not good for anyone. Lets just put a pin in that and see what happens.

well idk what else to say because its been a while since ive talked to you internet and those people that
read this, idk who you are but you are awesome. if you like reading this enough to continue reading then
im super impressed because honestly when i started writing this, it was a bit narcissistic.
if it means anything, if you guys have questions about me or something i can help you with then let me know
cause i love helping people out. makes me feel like im doing something productive with my life rather than
spending all my time on the internet looking at stupid pictures or reading what my friends are doing with
their lives. just write something in the comment box if you feel like it. i dont care what you write in there
cause its koo seeing that anyone wrote something. thanks. later internet and readers!

its been a while

well its definitely been a while since ive written anything on here so i guess its just time for
and update.
well my writing is doing a little better, have a couple original ideas that i dont want to discuss
because i dont want you to steal them
life in general is pretty good and there are few complaints to be made which is always a good thing and school
is still as boring as ever, but i still go most of the time
the amount of shinaniganns i get into now a days is a lot less than it has been in the past but that doesnt mean
that i still dont do it haha
as each year goes by i lose more friends, meet up with old ones, and make new ones
now its only months until the big 21 so im pretty excited for that!
still no job but working on it so hopefully that comes together soon so that i can move out and shit
idk what else to tell you guys cause its been pretty much the same as the last time, just a little older and still as dumb

bullies

i guess its always been a really big problem that was always swept under the rug
i never really experienced this much until high school because i went to a catholic school with very small class sizes. we all knew each other and pretty much had to get along.
once i got to high school i began to see this in different ways
when i first got to high school, i didnt know anyone so it was really difficult to try and figure out where to fit in
i played sports so it was easy to fit in with the "jocks" but i was also good in school so i hung out with the smart kids too
ive always sat in the middle of these 2 fences, but always leaned more on the smart kids side because school was more important than being "cool"
i mean yea i teased some kids, who hasnt, but i dont think i took it to the point were it was affecting someones life, that i know of.
im not a mean person and i dont like hurting people
and ive seen the popular kids ridicule and pick on anyone that wasnt in their group
most of the time i would side with my friends, the smart kids, because the popular
crowd wasnt very bright and wasnt really going anywhere after high school
i even saw this at other schools.
the worst part about all of this is that those kids picking on other kids, wont make anything out of their lives most of the time
then they try to say that they were nice to other kids in school when all they did was make fun of everyone around them that didnt fit into their groups
fortunately i never encountered bullying that severely affected someones life in a way that was harmful to their being
i always stuck with my friends because i knew that friendship was better than being popular in high school
besides, we wanted to go to college and do something with our lives instead of throw it all away before we even got there

oh well, bullying is wrong and people should be more aware of it because it is a serious problem that must be dealt with
no one should have to be put through these types of things no matter what
and for the smart kids out there, hang in there cause it will all pay off