for once in my life i know that i have no idea what i want to do and i can accept it
i know that i usually dont do anything and like it, but now i know that im not doing anything and that there is nothing wrong with it
as of right now i really dont have a social life anymore which would have bothered me like a year ago, but now i only mind a little
id rather be doing something to better my situation than just off doing nothing most of the time
granted there are times when i wish i could just go off and have fun with friends
on the topic of friends: i know i have been quite relentless in calling them all fake and everything but i just thought of something
it isnt their fault that we dont communicate anymore
we are all changing and i didnt fit into their lives anymore and i think i can accept that now
i myself have done some growing up since last summer and i hope that i continue to mature because im liking myself a little more each day
hopefully i will be able to improve my situation soon because where im at right now isnt ideal but it suffices for now
i want to be able to afford luxuries when it is convenient for me and not when my parents can give me the money
i had gotten a second chance to turn my life around and im taking more advantage of it than i was the first time around
ill still make dumb choices but thats part of the learning experiences(lets hope these ones dont cost me as much in the end)
