here we go again, school

what can i talk about today?
school has started again and its still uneventful so far
hopefully something good happens in the near future
but i dont want to get into any more trouble than i already have\
in the past and sorta recent past.
looking forward to job hunting i guess, tired of being broke again
it really isnt fun and i dont get to do most of the things i like to do
like go out and hit up the bars with my friends.
Oh and another thing, being that im a little behind in my classes
(im like a junior or something) i feel a little old in my classes
all these kids in my classes are like seniors and not even 21
im over here about to turn 22 and these kids are talking about 19th
birthdays and stuff. i know im not much older but still thats too crazy.
aside from that most of the people in my classes seem like alright people
i just want to be like, lets all go out for drinks and bond or whatever
guess thats out of the question right? haha
well thats enough ranting or whatever you want to call this for one day
ill let you guys get back to your exciting lives and stop worrying about mine

later guys!!

the things you think you deserve

most people take a few things for granted and one of those are friends
i was one of these people because i thought my friends would always be there
ive been proven wrong on this one so many times
all of my friends come and go so i shouldnt be surprised
the worst part about this is that i invest so much time and energy into
these friendships that i have nothing to show for it when they ditch me
friends always say that something changed, its true. they didnt want to hang out
with you anymore but they just dont want to tell you
we all have our reasons for leaving because ive done it as well but it always sucks
looks like i cant keep bitching about it because its just going to just keep
happening and we just have to let it take its course.
just once id like someone to tell me straight up that they dont want to be my friend
i hate when someone keeps giving excuses for not hanging out and it goes on
for months or even years before it finally sinks in.

all i have to say is cherish your friendships because they are short lived, well some,
and you have to enjoy that time with those people.
otherwise we would all just be sulking around everywhere not wanting to interact
with people for fear they will eventually leave you as well.
friends are like food, most of the time theyre good but sooner or later there
wont be any left but it was always worth meal

half of this doesnt make sense but fuck it!!