spontaneous trips

wow this was a pretty awsome weekend of this year
hot tub time machine wit the niggas was fuckin fun...hadnt spent time wit those guys in forever
then saturday rolled around and i didnt really do shit the whole day..until i hit up ricky cause we had a mission to execute.
we went to go buy some upsidedown paint and then to get some shoe polish..so we headed off to rubios to tag up ale's car..which was even funnier cause she was watchin her car the whole time...then we went to her house and tagged up her street wit the paint which was really fun cause we did it super fast so no one would see us...she ended up lovin it so that was the highlight of my day;)
crashed all late like at 3 cause i had to pick up the drunk ass parents
woke up all early today and then watched some movies...had this great idea to just cruise tucson and i hit up ricky
picked his ass up and we just drove east and he had this crazy idea to go up to mt. lemon so we decided to go
we got there and just drove up for like 20 min...ended up at this crazy ass place and just ran around all over the rocks.
thats wat you call male bondin

self identity

well i was in the bathroom and i saw this book and on the back it had something aboiut self-identity
then as my mind drifted off with this new topic i began to really think about it
so this is my take on self-identity:
from the very beginning of life our parents control and influence most of the things we do and see and say
this is the basic molding of yourself that might set up the person you are to become
then we start skoo and then begins the more advance molding of our young lives because it is here that our friends make us who we are
high school comes around and thats when everything gets completely messed up but sometimes in a good way
this is the time when we change wat we think is our own image which is merely a reflection of the teachings of our parents and past friends
we tend to think around this age that we are who we think we are but that is never true
i believe that it is only when we are completely free from all the connections that control us and we are left to fend for ourselves for the first time
but the thing is also that we may not be completely all ourselves...we may find our self-identity but that may be short lived
if you find someone that loves you and you end up marrying them that will also influence you in a different direction.
im not sayin that it will be a big change but we must not truely strive to find our self-identity because we are influenced by those we keep around and those we have been close to
just ponder this for a while and let me know wat your take on the matter is!

on a serious note

for some reason i feel like im always the odd one out
no matter the situation or the place or anything
i never really know the whole story or im just not in on everything that happened
im not tryin to sound all depressed or anything i just feel like i dont connect with anyone right now
i swear the people that i used to hang out with in the beginning of the year seem like strangers to me and its so odd that this has happened
i dont want to distance myself from everyone but it just seems like im gettin farther and farther away
like i cant just sit and talk to someone for more 20 min anymore because i run out of things to talk about
idk if this is just an akward time in my life or its just me?
i really dont
this is drivin me crazy because the only place i really feel comfortable now is by myself in my room and that is the last place i want to be
idk wat i should do or wat i can do
it seems the more i try to prevent this from happening the more and more i drift away from everyone
i cant stand being alone i constantly need people around me because if not i will escape to the confinds of my mind and never return
the thing i fear most is that i will revert back to when i never wanted to go out or do anything because i felt so left out from everything that i didnt even want to try
the worst part is though i think im already doin that
wat is one to do that has no real connection to the world?
its as if i slipped through a crack and im stuck while everyone passes by not noticing that im stuck
if only people knew my true distress
my mind wonders too much which causes me to imagine the worst possible outcomes of my life and enstill them as the true reality
wat if this entire thing is a falsity that my mind has created to prevent me from becoming the person i truely need to become?
only time will tell...lets hope it comes sooner before its too late

just some of the movies that i love:)

one of the best artists ever!!!!

so this has been my favorite artists since like the 7th grade:)
JOHN LEGEND!!!!
hes pretty much the shit and if you dont like him well idk wats wrong with you
i dont care if you like him a little that koo wit me
so yea he is basically wat an artists must be
this is not a homo thing at all so just stop right there if you are thinkin that.
ok so this muthafucka plays the piano which is badass
his voice is fuckin awsome cause i wish i could sing that good, women wouldnt be able to take their hands off me:)
we can switch up the tempo of his music from slow and sweet to up tempo with a sick beat...i mean it really doesnt get much better than this if you like RnB music
yea i know now a days everyone is into this hiphop and alternative or watever it is your into these days
but my one true favorite music is RnB cause it just captivates me
and this nigga JOHN LENGEND is like the reason why i love RnB

bored post!

so yea i dont care that i have no life and i post too much
its just fun cause theres nutin better to do:)
ok so im one of those koo kids with a twitter, but there are some people on there that just abuse it and need to chill out..seriously
and if you dont have one cause you think its only for douches..well its not!
ok so i am a little sad at my itunes cause well like 5 months ago i crashed my computer and lost all my good music
so i had to start over from scratch and it pisses me off cause idk wat i had and wat i need to get
oh well i guess some is better than none right?
well i guess ive been fuckin up at home and shit but fuck it cause im havin too much fum outside of home :)
well i really think ive come into my own sorta with like livin life and partyin and just life in general
well except for havin the car part cause that shit is pissin me off that i cant jus drive places>:(
oh well this is the end of my rant cause i actually thought of something interestering to blog about..until next time
peace out muthafuckas:)

the end is near:)

so as most of the people that actually read my blog are seniors this is one of the most important times ever!
skoo is almost over and we only have like 2 and a half more months til graduation
if you are a senior and your not graduatin this is all i have to say to you..DUMBASS
well for those of us that are graduatin congrats cause we fuckin put up wit this bullshit for wat..12 years!
now we are finally free from government funded education and we can finally start learnin:)
some of those graduating know wat they are gonna do next year..which is either go to pima or just start workin..now thats not bad but i mean its not great.
and there are those like myself who are goin to go to universities:)
now im not sayin its better but its different in soo many ways
well hope everyone has a really fun journey no matter wat they end up doin with their lives!
if you ever see someone from back in your highskoo days i encourage you to slow down and take the time to talk to them if its right then adn there or over lunch
cause thats wat life is about..makin new connections and reconnectin with those from the past
lets live it up while we can and live everyday as if its that one day you want to remember for the rest of your life:D
best of luck to all of you

drunk people!!

best video wit the song!!

march madness(not basketball)

ok so this weekend was super crazy
it all started on friday morning when i woke up super late cause we had to get to skoo but i still made it
sat through class which was super borin and then got out at 12 to set up for the tournament
well we started the tournament and that friday we went 1-2 but it was all good.
ths was still playin so i stayed to watch them and chris messed up his ankel again
felt bad for him
so i was just sittin there wit ale and korrin and when the game was over we went to buffalo wild wings and ate some bomb ass food, playin never have i ever, and met the craziest old white dude named rappin ron. this dude fuckin punked ricky, punked and hit on korrin that was hilarious
then i got home got in trouble the first time and passed out:) good night
so woke up and got ready for day 2 of the tournament
first we played ths and unfortunately we lost in the third game barely!!!!!!
we could have had them if our setter didnt suck so bad
oh well that day we went 2-1 so it was all goood
got home around 4 and me and ricky pretty much were dead
that nigga passed out so i just got on the computer
then we decided we were gonna go out so i took a shower and durin that time ricky and ale had some sexy time on skype :P on my computer hahahahahahaahahahaha
so we left and my mom was like be home at 12:30 so i was like koo
well we left and then went to dq to get some icecream..ale couldnt keep the icecream in her mouth so it ended up all over the place...oh and that stick is dumb:P
so we decided to go to ernies bp tournament
we kicked it there and hung out wit some of the niggas
then i had to leave and ricky had his ride home but i had to take ale home;)
dropped her off at 12:30 and didnt get home til 1:30:)
got home and got in trouble the sencond time...this time was worse
oh well it was totally worth it
kinda grounded i guess but fuck it im too good
got an hour lecture from my mom...nutin to me
passed out and woke up this morning and my eye was fuckin killin me!
hopefully today doesnt completely suck:P