first time for everything

i recently went to vegas for the first time and it wasnt anything like i expected
i ended up going with my dad and my sister. im 21 but my sister isnt!
really didnt get to do any of the crazy fun stuff everyone usually does in vegas
i did get to walk around a bunch of casinos and drink outside.
it wasnt all bad, played some slots and even won $12
i mean its a koo place to go if you are going with friends that share the same
interests as you, otherwise you will end up getting bored real quick like i did
i guess its not all fair because im not much of a site seer so i dont like to
just walk around and look at all the shit.
at least there were plenty of places to go eat and shit while we were there
now im really looking forward to going back with some friends and actually
doing something really fun in vegas. drinks at the pool, clubbing, see some shows
who knows what it will be like next time, but it cant get any worse!

i guess you really never know right

id say that im surprised but who am i kidding.
it seems like i have lost another group of friends but thats whatever
im not really offended that they dont want to talk to me
the only thing that really pissed me off is that they never told me.
i dont mind if you dont want to hang out with me or whatever, but at least
have the decency to tell me instead of ignoring me.

you know its weird how attached we become to our friends that once they are gone
that we feel lost and have no sense of place. maybe thats just how i feel
right now or maybe thats just how i always feel.
i mean ive lost friends before so its not like the end of the world or anything
the thing that i dislike the most is that ive done it so many times.

seriously like there are so many people i used to hang out with and now its like
i never see them because either they want nothing to do with me or we just dont
get along good enough to be in the same room. this means im alone right now with
the exception of my bestfriend who is always there for me, but we dont see each other
that often so its different. now i have to find a new group of friends that
accept me and want to spend time with me alot. its actually not that hard
but i dont want to be doing this every other year, maybe its my fault or their fault.
whatever, its past so now just to move forward and do something about it.

this is one of the many reasons i hate tucson and really need to move on from this
place. some people love it here, but its not for me and ive known that for some time.
just have to get through school and hopefully i can finally get out of here.

until then, have fun people