my birthday

haha it was pretty good:)
woke up late and it was awsome
then bestfriends took me to breakfast and dad brought my brownies
got to skoo and chilled wit eric the whole 4th period
went to fifth and watched the funniest movie in that class
went to lunch and had a blast
got to 6th and everyone finally realized it was my birthday
kicked it after skoo and went to the game
ate some food afterward and saw the ninja chan hahahahha

aww the only downside of being 18 and still in highskoo
is that pretty much everyone there is jailbait and it makes me sad
now i wanna go to college so i dont get sent to prison:P

other than that there are alot of pluses like lottery and smokin i guess
umm clubin and stripclubs
tons of other stuff now just lookin forward to the 21st birthday ;P

well thanks everyone

just watever :P

haha i saw this and i thought to myself this bitch is crazy
how do you let a bird sit on your head
i would be freaking out too if i had a bird on my head


well it just reminded me of some good times
so i hope you can think back to some fun times

Crane's Class

alright so this is like the best 5th period class ever
AP Literature with Mrs. Crane
its soo inspirational and imaginative.
we all have a blast learning about some interesting phrases and some unusal characters that write things.
yea we are pretty much nerds but we enjoy it
random nonsense about things that normal people wouldnt discuss
UNDONE. thats all that needs to be said.
so poetry isnt that great but we can make it somewhat fun.
playing pranks on freshman leaving them secret notes and laughing about it even though they never really read the notes.
as many who have taken that class and those of us that are taking it can honestly say that Mrs.Crane is like a genius in her own profession or at least a pretty good teacher:)
for those who are going to take it be warned extreme fun may come out of your learning but its ok.
THANKS MRS.CRANE

ps. John Donne. Undone.

keepin it real

alright so some of my most recent posts have been a little depressin and all sad
so this one imma try to lift my mood cause i guess its the good thing to do

well not havin a car really sucks but i get to chill wit a bunch of friends and get rides from different people
ive been havin some fun at skoo lookin forward to some good times soon
so i really wanna go make some fresh ass shirts for calculus and just watever
they are gonna be sick i hope
oh and halloween is comin up...time for all the girls to wear as little amount of clothin they want and not be called sluts..i love it
yea im hopin thats a good day cause its my birthday weekend
yea imma be 18 next week and lookin forward to it...kinda
just been bumpin some music and tryin to see the positives in life
got my health, my friends, and good times
fall is here and its my favorite season cause i getta wear hoodies and long sleeve shirts:)
oh and ive been workin out and gettin bigger;)
gettin a little bored of myspace but im still addicted hahaha
just livin day by day for now

ignorance is bliss

most people go through life feelin all kinds of different things but never tell anyone cause they are afraid they will be judged
now we shouldnt have to be afraid of wat our friends might say because at some point in time they will feel the same way
sometimes these feelings may lead to problems and if they are not discussed could lead to something that you dont want
stop being ignorant and talk about your feelings
yea most guys have trouble opening up because they have been brought up to be tough and let nothin hurt them
well thats bullshit seriously
the hardest and toughest thing a man can do is open up himself and express who he really is inside
we all need to open up and show our true selves because if not we might end up hurting ourselves and maybe others

i want to open up to those that are reading this because i believe that i am a man
right now i am feeling this deep loneliness and longing for something but i have no idea wat it is
it might be a companion, it might be within myself, it might just be stress
idk but im hopin that with the help of my friends i can get over this
i am also feelin lost in this world because as almost every teenager thinks they know everything but i realized there is way more out there that i have no idea about
this has left me in a place in which i want to know more but im afraid of wat i might learn
well thanks for listenin cause it means that much to me
if you are feelin the same way or you have gotten over this please help me out and lets talk cause i want feedback
send me a message at stackonbase8@aim.com :)

hopefully more of you will realize that you arent alone and sometimes you have to open up to face your problems

some activity

well the biggest movie of the year PARANORMAL ACTIVITY came out and i had to see it
yea it was pretty intense and mildy scary
its not the movie itself that was meant to scare you but wat was left for you to think about and create it in your mind
in the times of the greeks they had dramas in which no on screen violence occured because they believed they could not create something as horrible as you could imagine.
the same thing with this movie it leaves too much up to the mind and that wat scares people.
well i think that dumb people wit no intellectual capacity will even be scared cause they cant imagine anything
ok so all you need to know is that it will tamper wit your brain and leave you questioning everything you do in the dark for about a week
hope you go watch it and enjoy:))

drifting away

i have come to realize that we all grow apart and we never sustain any real connections with people
yes its true that we may have friends that are there for a very long time but we all drift away at some point
its life that we become different people and just think it best to seperate and take different paths
now this isnt necessarily a bad thing because it opens you up to many new oportunitties in the long run
this drift mainly occurs durin high school while you are still trying to find yourself, but the biggest break is right after high school when those who choose higher education and those who dont split
yea everyone will try to stay connected but it just wont work out
for instance my bestfriend since freshman year and i are driftin apart more and more each day.
i havent talked to him in like 2 or 3 weeks.
yea we still hang out and kick it but its not the same as it used to be
our intrest have changed and so have we
its just another part of life and im willing to accept it because it will teach me something about myself
yea i know its not good that im losing such a close friend but its inevitable
keep those you love in your heart and they will never fade

alone...

im seriously tired being alone all the time
i just want to find a girl that is willing to be wit me because she wants to
i want someone thats gonna be comitted to the relationship and not just say that we are together.
im not sayin that i need everyone to know it but she needs to know it
i want someone that will be there just because she wants to sit there wit me
when we stare into eachothers eyes we dont see anything but eachothers thoughts
i want to sit around and hold hands because its cute
i want her to wear my sweater and fight me for it when i ask for it back
i want someone that wants to cuddle
i want someone that will make me feel like im not alone

all im askin for is someone that will be there for me and will be all mine
all the cute stuff just happens
i know im always sayin that girlfriends are overrated but im tired of just sittin around all by myself
i want someone for me because i hate being alone
who will she be?
hopefully she shows up soon cause im tired of waiting....

How much do we understand??

life is a mystery that we all live through trying to find its meaning.
yea we think we know wat it is but i dont think there really is a meaning to life.
i think that we are just here and we do wat we do because its something to do.
we have our ways of doing things, our own values, our own styles
so im not sayin that we shouldnt exist but im sayin that we live because we want to
there isnt a destiny or fate.. sure there is coinsidence and chance cause that is probable
cause and effect may govern the earth or maybe there is some hidden system that rules our lives.
religion has corrupted our lives and filled it with unrealistic truths
look im not sayin that everything that religions say is wrong but they have a tendancy to alter the truth in their favor and i disapprove of this.
they drag people in and feed them these false truths and expect them to go out and relay this to others.
man is in control of his own life.
we must be free from all chains that hold us down.
i dont want to be mistaken...you can believe in religion just dont expect everything they say to be fact but rather apply the moral lessons into life situations...
we must govern our own lives and take charge.
we must live without fear that there is someone out there to punich us and live the way we see fit.
government, restrictions, barriers, guides, rules, authority: these are all walls that we must tear down and set ourselves free.
im not sayin to agree with me but take into consideration wat it is that you hope to accomplish in life and think the endless possibilities that you could have if you lived life without restraints.
live, love, freedom.

prosper in your greatness and stand in no ones shadow for you are your own power and no one shall step upon your ambitions.- Gilbert Durazo

SENIORS???

wow alright so most of you that read this know that we get super crazy at the spirit assembly and it was too much fun
yea everyone loved the mustache i know
i hope everyone had a bomb ass time cause i know i did
yea i was wearin leggins and shit but its all good
so the juniors thought that they could beat us but they were a little naive
SENIORS WON THAT BITCH!!!
so the assembly was amazin and did you guys see Ms. Wallace win the teacher of the month award that was soo koo

then we hit up the football game even though we didnt win
yea me paul and this other guy painted ourselves and had a good time jammin out wit the band
hector you are too awsome.
ricky chris hector jess mark mari eric paul j-kwon will chivo
yea man that was too bomb gettin all hyphy and shit
well wat a last homecomin we had cause thats just how we do it
well thanks everyone it was a great night and then i got home and passed out early:P