fuck you

so lately i have noticed that i cant rely on anyone for anything...im not just talking about like hey let me help you, im talking about everything
for example i have so much info that i dont really want to have but i cant tell it to anyone and you know how hard it is to keep a secret...especially if you are me?
it feels like im slowing going insane while everyone watches but care little enough to say something.
also i hate when people bring up stupid shit that was in the past and try to embarrass me with it...i already lived it so it cant be that bad
following that i HATE when people make little remarks about me crashing cars...its like yea i get it that i have been in more accidents than the average person but fuck you! it doesnt piss me off as much as it just gets way too old!

so i know that i gained weight and everyone seems to think that it bothers me a considerable amount but it actually doesnt. yea sure i want to lose it but its not like im going to die if i dont
so please all those people that enjoy talking shit to me, its not going to work cause nothing you can say will affect me...so save your breathe please
there is only one person that i can tell anything to in confidence and he is in another country...so if you think i can trust you that much im sorry

life goes on and i really dont care if you are going to walk it with me or not, just get the fuck out of my way
there are little things i care for in this world and if you dont want to be one of them by all means be my guest...just dont expect me to care about you after
as for women in my life..i can say in honesty you only love someone once and after that its never the same. it was fun

people make a big deal about too many little things in their life when they should be enjoying it...i really wish i had some close friends right now, but i guess im just not giving myself that luxury.....